I wish I could have the guts to tell you the things that constantly run through my mind but since I don’t I’m writing this letter.
First off let me say that you made me extremely happy for the short time that we were together. You were the first boy to make me feel the way I did. You were the first boy that I could call in three in the morning because I couldn’t sleep and you answer the phone and would be ready to talk about anything.You were also the first boy that my friends and family loved to be around.You truly made me feel like I was something special.
I want you to know that when we agreed that things weren’t working out, my throat literally would not let me talk. I was completely speechless.
I want you to know that I argued with you even after the breakup because I cared and I still got jealous.
I want you to know that not talking to you was one of the hardest things I had to do. Every time I was alone I had to resist the urge to text you.
I want you to know that I deleted you off of everything was because I needed to separate my self from you to get over you. I didn’t mean to push you further away.
I want you to know that deleting you didn’t work because I still think of you till this very day. From the moment I wake up to you moment I fall asleep.
And lastly I want you to know that I hate the fact that I can’t hate. No matter how badly things ended and no matter how much me argued, the only things left in my memory is how truly happy I was with you. I wish that you were still in my life, maybe not in a relationship but as a friend.
I hope that one day in the future, we bump into each other and start a new chapter of friendship.
Until then, these are the words that remain unsaid.