I can’t believe you

I can’t believe you

I can’t believe you

Dear H

5 long years! And you get rid of me like I was never anything important to you. I’m pregnant with your baby, and the time that I need you the most you turn your back on me, on us. All I asked was for something to change temporarily  and you couldn’t even do that, no matter how much I did for you, all the things I was willing to do for you and you couldn’t do what I needed because it didn’t suit you..

I never thought that you, you out of everyone would do this to me, you told me you loved  me more than you ever though you could or would love someone, but I call bullshit on that one, because you don’t do that to the people you love. I am shocked, I never thought you had it in you to be that type of person, it’s so disappointing. And you do it over text messages, you are definitely not the type of man that you say you are, a man would step up and do what’s needed of him, he wouldn’t just walk away and hide behind messages like a coward.

I don’t even know who you are…

Im so sad, I thought you always had my back, I thought you’d protect me, and be there for me no matter what. Looking back now the signs were there because when we used to argue you’d give up on me so easily, I should’ve taken that as a sign and ended it the second time, I wouldn’t be in this position right now, I wouldn’t have to deal with getting rid of my baby and being emotionally scarred. But I don’t want any connection to you what so ever, I don’t want to be reminded of you, and I can’t do it alone. And all you can say about that is its better off that way! What the fuck!

I’m so angry and sad and so disappointed. And when people ask you what happened I bet you’ll put all the blame on me, because you are a coward!

So much to say, so much going through my mind…

I can’t believe this, I’m so broken right now.

2 Comments

  1. Samantha Jones 3 years ago

    Hi, I’m so sorry to hear about your dick of a boyfriend, you deserve better than that coward but i just wanted to say one thing. Although i do not know you, maybe you should reconsider keeping the baby, in the future will you regret getting rid of the life you created? If you have the baby and meet someone it will be obvious that if they accept your past and accept your choice to keep the baby then they will deserve your love.It may remind you of your ex but maybe if you kept it you could show your ex just how much more amazing your child is than your ex. The child could be the joy you need, don’t see it as a reminder see it as a new life that you yourself have given birth to.
    much love,
    Sam

  2. Evenstar 3 years ago

    Oh Gabriella, I am so sorry. I wish you that you can recover soon from all of this. This is really ugly, terrible the worst situation one can imagine in a relationship. I think I would do the same if I was you.

    Men can be really weird and Im starting to be sick of it. Really, why is it always that they have the last word and dont have guts to face us?

    Please pull all the strength you have inside of you to make yourself feel better. Focus ONLY on yourself, if the thought wander his way, think of smth else.

    I have almost been there where you are and Im not sure if I do have an ex right now.

    However, we cant let them treat us like a dirt.

    Chin up! You ve got friends and you deserve SO MUCH BETTER than this.

    Lots of love

    Sona

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