I can’t explain how i feel seeing you with her. Everyone always asking me “how does that make me feel” when i hear that she moved in with you or that you are engage. I never know how to answer that. For so long i imagined that would be us, we talked about our future together and how we would have little kids of our own running around the house. i have learned to dealt with the fact that you have someone new in your life, but i cant help but tell myself “that used to be me” everyday i remember little things about us and since i found out you got her a ring i cant stop dreaming of you showing me that ring.

i miss your phone calls, i miss just seeing you around. i always answer the question with, i’m okay. nice ring. only i know how i truly feel. i have gone through this for so long that i hate talking to people about it because there is no point to dwelt about it. writing it down is a way of saying the things i never have the chance to tell you. someone can only take so long before they had enough. It’s over, move on already. i need to move on and stop letting memories get to me