I love you still
Dawn, I did so love you when I was lucky enough to call you mine, now I am so much better and no longer affected by my past, my love for you is clearer to me and its stronger than you can imagine. I now know what real love is. It is blind devotion, unquestioning self-humiliation, utter submission to your heart, complete trust and belief against yourself and against the whole world, giving up your heart and soul to it. Love also wounds you beyond description, it tears your heart to pieces, but as it gets older and stronger it also tears deeper.
This I now know and understand too well. I wish I could have been able to show you the strength of this love, why did I suppress my feelings, was it because I was scared of rejection, because of my past growing up. But I was clouded, not just by my past, but by my reluctance to tackle the abuse I survived, why did it take for us to be apart for me to realise the angel I had by my side.
This is why I know I will never love another. My heart does not allow it. So whatever paths we travel on, please know I will never cease to love you Dawn, I would walk to the ends of the earth and back for one more moment to hold you in my arms. Every line in the song by Sam Smith, Like I Can is almost as if I wrote it to explain how my heart feels but its true no one will love you like I can Dawn.