I know I fucked up,

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry I work 2 jobs,

I’m sorry everyone depends on me, my family, my co-workers, my bosses, my clients, my love.

I’m sorry , I show up to work, and the machinery fails everyday, having me to save the company.

I’m sorry I’m stressed out, and I flip time to time,

I’m sorry I can’t handle my drink,

I’m sorry I can’t hold my temper,

I’m sorry I don’t always say what I should, or have it come out the wrong way,

I’m sorry I get confused and can’t think straight,

I’m sorry I can’t always do the right thing, like be romantic, despite my efforts,

I’m sorry I condemn the use of drugs, despite I make compromise , and the fact that  it’s corrupts the soul, and kills people.

I’m sorry I’m not always there for your every need,

I’m sorry I’ve seen shit, and done things that I can never forget and that will continue to haunt me until the day I die.

I’m sorry I’m stubborn, and have a hard time listening to others.

I’m sorry all I know is to keep moving forward, no matter what.

I’m sorry I never knew when to take a break, realizing  that depression, and burnouts do exist.

I’m sorry I don’t know when to quit,

I’m sorry I can’t always be happy,

I’m sorry I don’t ask for much,

I’m sorry is never showed you how much i cared,

I’m sorry I loose control sometimes,

I’m sorry I’m selfish at times,

I’m sorry I get lazy

I’m sorry I worry all the time

I’m sorry I’m tiered after work

I’m sorry I have to make all the decisions

I’m sorry I had so much on my plate, and I didn’t  always put you first,

I’m sorry I can be a fool, and ruthlessly malicious,

I’m sorry I never asked for help,

I’m sorry, the day we took a break, I was worried sick, caught you in a lie figuring out,you were out fucking some guy like it wasn’t a big deal. On my birthday.

Days before that, you misunderstood the term idiot being directed to you,  sadly it was directed to myself.

I was serious concerning proposing to you,

Just waiting for the opportune moment

I’m sorry I didn’t sacrifice everything for you

I’m sorry I tried

I’m sorry I’m  not perfect

I’m sorry I was never good enough

I’m sorry I love you.

I never lied to you,

And never cheated on you.

I guess that doesn’t count for much these days.