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I have literally forgotten how to be happy without you. I know you don’t deserve me anymore, but this pain is unbearable. I’m tired of feeling this way. How could you move on so fast? It doesn’t make any sense. I gave you everything I had, and I know I’m not perfect but I tried as hard as I could. I can’t fucking forget you not after everything we did. I gave you my virginity and I fell so fucking hard that it hurt. But the thing is, you made it feel like I was allowed to fall as hard asI did, like it was okay. You made me feel so secure. You promised you’d catch me. But then you just pulled it all out from under me.

I NEVER WANT TO SPEAK TO YOU AGAIN. I say that over and over but when I’m alone in my room with all the memories, I can’t help but fall apart. And the thing is, you don’t even care. You find it so easy to just walk away. So it was all just bullshit. That’s the conclusion that I’ve come to. You didn’t mean it. You walked in wanting to get into someones pants and you walked out wanting the exact same. So PLEASE just leave me alone. Stop leading me on, stop calling me beautiful, just let me go because every time you talk to me and then pull it all away again, it’s like I can’t breathe. I am so tired of this. I can’t take this anymore. I wish I had never met you. YOU CAN’T FUCKING DO THIS TO ME ANYMORE.