I want to forget you

I want to forget you

I want to forget you

During my senior year you sat next to me in class. Throughout the year we developed one of the tightest relationships I have ever had. Our bond, our chemistry. I could never have imagined, and you agreed with me. You called me, “Your fresh air.” I tried to draw closer to you and we flirted. We had so much tension, it was crazy. Then you kissed me, on my couch, after watching to opening ceremonies to the Olympics. It was a bad kiss and you rushed out of my house so quickly. I never gave up on us until a day into my trip to Miami. While I was there, another guy showed me interest. He admitted to liking me so easily, he wasn’t afraid to draw near me like you. Maybe you knew too much, maybe you knew all of the baggage that came with me and that is why you would never let me get too close. Or maybe you just led me on. When I found that someone else could love me, I let you go. You rudely addressed me. Instead of telling me how you really felt, you fabricated hurtful lies about this other man. Instead of being a man, you become the sour, bitter queen you really are. And sure, I reacted poorly, but I was hurt. Instead of falling for me, you were just hurting me. You loved the chase, didn’t you? And then, instead of taking ownership, you pointed the finger at me. You ignored me for six months, and at thanksgiving you told me you never cared about me and that we are not friends. I deleted that message, but it will be forever ingrained in my mind. Since then, I have begun to date the most incredible man. A man who loves me and cares about me. A man who is not afraid to get close to me, but I will admit that sometimes I think about you. I wonder how you are doing, I think about the things I would say if I ever say you again. Sometimes I even dream of you, but I let it go. I let it all go. And I don’t wish to hate you or send you ill vibes, I just want to forget you ever existed. I don’t want to continue to feel the loss of you. I don’t want to have the desire to check up on you via social media. Tonight, you decided to friend request me on facebook, and you know what I have to say to that..How dare you. You tell me we aren’t friends, then why would you request to be friends on Facebook. What is wrong with you? Leave me alone. You’re literally the worst

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