4 years later, I still think of you daily

4 years later, I still think of you daily

4 years later, I still think of you daily

LTME postDear Kayleigh,

I know it has been such a long time since we spoke, I have always thought about writing but never followed through, the reason I am doing it now is because you are always on my mind and I know there is such little chance of us getting together again.. my mind seems to think otherwise and won’t let it go.

I have tried everything to get over you.

I have tried forgetting about you, being with other women, moving country and therapy/counselling. I have even tried hating you but it didn’t last at all. It has been over 4 years, I think something is wrong with me, why can’t I be happy with anyone else?

I’ve never come close to being as happy as I was with you. Every morning I woke up next to you I never realized how good that feeling was until you weren’t there.

Our breakup was rough, I apologize for being an immature drunk idiot that night, I will never forgive myself for acting violently and unreasonable. I have done a lot of growing up since then, as you know I went to prison for a year and I did fine, it didn’t change me at all, it was just a waste of a year.

I know it’s pathetic but I can’t see myself being happy ever again unless I get some kind of closure.. So this letter is really a request for us to meet and possibly talking through this, I need to hear the hard truth from you. It would be completely on your terms, I just need some kind of closure. If you could do this for me, please understand you are helping me move on with my life and keep my sanity. I mean it’s over 4 years later and I still think of you nearly every day and can’t stop.

I realise how crazy this sounds, I thought I would be over you by now but the fact is I am not and it is affecting my wellbeing. This is the only idea I have left. I didn’t know how else to contact you, this is the best I could do.

Regards,
Daniel Koch

1 Comment

  1. Jessica 3 years ago

    Please be proud of yourself for having the guts to write what you did. It seems as if you have changed and 4 years is a long time. You could of been a boy then, now a man. I don’t know you but your letter made me cry. I was physically attacked by my X boyfriend the last time we saw each other. I hear he regrets and hurts but he would never put his pride away and write me a letter like this. It is beautiful and if things work out, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE count to ten, walk away, try to watch your drinking ANDROID LOVE THEORY SHITOUT OF HER. If they dont, ugh, it takes a long time sometimes. And it’s painful. But at least she knows now that you are truly sorry and still not complete, without her. Good luck… jess

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