We met in what started to be one of the worst winters of my life. Recently out of a six year relationship you made being single (something completely different to me) ok. It was weird going out and closing bars down, completely oblivious to anything else around except you. We spend all summer together with you voice being my sound track as we cruised all day blaring white man reggae and other feel good jams. We spent all our time together from right off the bat, it was like we immediately moved in together. I dont remember exact moments from that summer but that feeling i will never forget. The thought that we were young and in love. But more than that i never been so seamlessly intertwined with someone and enjoyed it so much. We didnt fight at all that first year. You wanted to get a place together so we did. It was strange because we were two people who needed our alone time but somehow made it work.
And now here we are. Three months have gone by from when I think we broke up, however to you its probably more. I believed everything you said throughout the whole thing, and now I’m left wanting. Not wanting you back as much but wanting my best friend back more. You are still the only person Ive never lied to and I feel stupid for it. We grew at different paces, I was forced to be the adult for both of us. Working 60 hours and coming home to you on the couch asking me what we were doing for dinner. Part of me loved being the go to guy, but you started to resent me for you being stuck and me moving forward. How could you hold doing what i did for you against me. I did everything for you solely cause you werent doing anything for yourself. And now Im leaving and may not come back. I dont expect much anymore cause I know I wont get it. But it is a horrible feeling knowing that Ive been replaced after only a few months, especially after I thought we were so close. So this is the last energy i have to spend on you. Ive given you so much for so long. Im leaving in 1 month and 10days. Heading down south and the off to places i dont know. Part of me hopes you read this but part of me doesnt want you to know I spent the energy. Good luck i hope you find whatever your looking for. And i hope its worth it. Please stop doing this to ppl in your life. Youve left so many people that you deemed would take to much effort to have in life behind. and these people prob care more than any of your new frends.
“He fell inlove with a reservation girl bout the time of the sugar beat harvest. They moved out west to the coast where he built her a bed made of shag bark from sherwood forest.
And live was good until she told him goodbye. said they were better off living separate lives. And maybe they was”