It’s very easy to take off the clothes and have sex, people do it all the time. But to feel your partner, being transparent with them, understanding them, giving space to them, to let them into your soul that is being nude. But sometimes you don’t even know that, how you feel about your man, does he even know that or does he even care about your feelings or does he even feel the same way? At this instant moment laying beside him, watching him, watching his peaceful face while he is asleep is the most amazing feeling. I don’t know weather its right or not but the feeling i am having for him, i have never felt it before. I am falling for him. I am falling in love with him. Today when i saw him in-front of me, i didn’t wanted anything else in my life, i felt like god has given me everything now. He is becoming my weakness as well as my strength. Without him i am like a fish without water. My life was full of grey but his presence has made my life colourful. I am having a good feeling after ages. I dont want him to take me as a burden or even like the girls who comes for a night. I want to be his strength, his favourite hello and hardest goodbye. I want to be there when he need a friend to talk to, i want to be there with him when he is not well to take care of him, i want to be there with him when he is sad just to make him feel better to make him feel that i am always there for him no matter how hard the time goes.I am not expecting anything from him, i just want him to hold my hands, look into my eyes and smile. Its ok if he dont say i love you and all. I dont want it. But it should be their in his eyes. I love that smell of his body which comes from the clothes in which he has hugged me. When i use to go back to the hostel and sleep in the very same clothing on, i feel close to him as if he is right there beside me in my imaginations, where no one can see him and he is there only for me.
To my love