My self esteem no longer relies on what you think

My self esteem no longer relies on what you think

My self esteem no longer relies on what you think

LTME postYou never told me I was beautiful, he tells me everyday. You never wanted to spend time with, he can’t spend enough time with me. You broke me, he’s fixing me. The only thing I was too you was a burden, a chore and an annoyance. You never did anything nice for me that didn’t also benefit yourself, but I was expected to make your life as easy as I could, I did much more for you than a girlfriend should ever have to. I did things for you knowing you would not return the favor. I participated in your weird fantasies even though they made me uncomfortable, I felt I had to to get you to stay because you seemed so disinterested in me. Because of you I sat on the sidelines of life with you for 6 years and didn’t truly experience my teenage years. Now in my 20s I finally get to experience what I missed out on, with him. You damaged my self esteem and I felt I always needed to apologize for who I was, something I didn’t realize until I met him and he treated me the way I deserved to be treated, but because you treated me so horrible I was will with suspicion as to why a man would be so nice to me. I want you to know that I’m done feeling so bad about myself because you wanted me too, you hated when I was happy, now I’m the happiest I’ve ever been, because I left you. My favorite part is that you had a front row seat to all of this. You had to watch me fall in love again right in front of your very eyes. You had to watch a new man treat me right and you had to hear a new guy make me laugh in a way you never could. Although it may have been unfair for you to have to see that, it was also unfair for me to be so damaged from you, when I’m the one who never gave up on us, you did, and you aren’t even hurting.

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