Dear James,

I saw today on POF you uploaded a new picture. I haven’t seen you in five months and you look amazing. Virginia must be doing you right. I hear the weather is nice there compared to West Virgina.

I can’t say I didn’t cry. Because that would be a lie. It hurt to see the person who I loved dearly was doing well without me. I couldn’t comprehend it, I couldn’t handle that you leaving turned out to be the best thing for you.

I waited five months for that call, but it never came. I keep thinking that our love will bring us back together. It will make you forgive me. I wasn’t ready before, but I am ready now. Even though I have dated other guys and I am currently in a relationship, he is not you!

I made sooooo many mistakes but I was young. I was foolish. I was so scared, I wasn’t ready for anything like that. I wish I picked my battles, I wish I didn’t say the things I did. I get what you want nothing to do with me, it’s normal. I deserve it, but it doesn’t make it hurt any less. I loved you and still love you more than I have ever loved anyone else my entire life. I wonder late at night if by any chance you are thinking of me. When you do, do you smile? Or do you feel pain?