To the man I loved for so long

To the man I loved for so long

To the man I loved for so long

LTME-postTo the man that broke my heart into a thousand pieces, I never was the perfect wife, who is? I had an attitude, stresses, temper, pain but I loved hard. I was faithful and loyal. We were together 16 years and have three beautiful children.

For 16 years you complimented me, made me feel sexy, provided shelter, food and love. These almost four years have been the worst of my life. You turned into someone I didn’t know. Now treating me like dirt on your shoe. Walking out on your family. Now not providing for us like you once did. Trying to act as if I didn’t exist anymore. Expecting me a stay at home mother to now provide like you did with very little help from you anymore.

I was devastated, felt like my heart was ripped from my chest. Then the verbal abuse started, degrading me about my ability to now do your job of sole caretaker of our children. You had me feeling like I was the lowest piece of crap on the earth. After taking care of three babies and our home. I never tried to control you, I never gave you a hard time about taking time for yourself, I never made big deals about anything. Yes, you had to deal with a short temper, bad attitude sometimes, my anger from being in pain but you take the good with bad. I was loyal and faithful and stayed when sometimes it seemed as if you didn’t want to be there and I felt unloved or that you wouldn’t fight for me. You were my no

You were my no means perfect either but it’s for better or worse. I have never been hurt so bad in my life. Then I found out you were seeing someone, I may have been able to get over that fact but to find out it was one of our family members and then to be degraded, humiliated & hated by this person made it no better. There were so many lies told about me and I have no clue which were told to you and you believed because there was never a conversation about what was going on. To believe anything or anyone over a woman you spent 16 years with is unbelievable. Your children and I had to live with my parents for 2 years to finally get on my feet in

To believe anything or anyone over a woman you spent 16 years with is unbelievable. Your children and I had to live with my parents for 2 years to finally get on my feet in housing to only be degraded by the both of you about it. Who treats the mother of his kids so badly and why? I don’t understand it. There is no coparenting. I do it. You pretend as if I’m not the mother of your children, I don’t exist anymore. Why would you treat someone that way? Why would you go with this woman that was a sister in law to both of us. Why is OK to disrespect the woman that gave birth to your children? This woman is so mean and has said so many vulgar comments & names. Why would you not have enough respect for your kids to not allow this? Why would you put your own children through this? I don’t understand. I didn’t deserve this. Why tell me

Why tell me you love me a week before you decide to do this? The stress is overwhelming now dealing with a man & woman that hate me for reason I have no clue why. You now have a child with this woman, why? Our children and her children whom are cousins are now connected as brothers and sisters. Why? Why is this woman that has caused so much turmoil in our family worth it? Why do you believe her in the things she says about me? This woman wanted my husband, my life and she got it. She will also try to turn my children against me. She has you and my brother turned against me. Why? Why would neither of you give me the chance for my side of the story? Why won’t you listen to me? Why do you only believe her? I don’t understand. My love has now faded for you and I mostly have hate now but I will never forget the pain you caused. I struggle daily and I do the best I can to provide while you now house her & her children. I have no man to depend on. I have no one to make sure my car is safe for our kids. I have no man to call if I break down or something goes wrong. I have no man to provide extra things for these kids. The two men I use to depend on that made sure we were all safe no longer care and provide for her only. How? How could you do that? How can you not be concerned how safe your own children are or if they have food and shelter. So many mean things have been done and theres no coming back from that ever. But you know what? I forgive you even though you never apologized. I have to for my own sanity but I will never forget.

My love has now faded for you and I mostly have hate now but I will never forget the pain you caused. I struggle daily and I do the best I can to provide while you now house her & her children. I have no man to depend on. I have no one to make sure my car is safe for our kids. I have no man to call if I break down or something goes wrong. I have no man to provide extra things for these kids. The two men I use to depend on that made sure we were all safe no longer care and provide for her only. How? How could you do that? How can you not be concerned how safe your own children are or if they have food and shelter. So many mean things have been done and theres no coming back from that ever. But you know what? I forgive you even though you never apologized. I have to for my own sanity but I will never forget.

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