It’s easy to say that you’re over someone when you’re not seeing them. The hard part is to look them in the eye, and still say: This is not what i want anymore.
After not seeing you in summer break in convinced myself that i didn’t care anymore, that i had moved on. I talked to other guys again, i didn’t think about you i wasn’t sad.
But then, school started, and it all came rushing back drowning me with every love conclusion every little great thing about you that i loved, and i realized i was never over you, i’ll never get over you.
The way were looking after each other, at each other that’s not something you would just do as “friends”. The sad part is; were not even friends. We’re nothing anymore; we’re strangers. We have to act like we don’t know each other and care for each other, when really, all i do is think about you, miss you, want to hug you, want to text you, keep up on your life, get every new detail that i have missed since that day. The day you left me.
I don’t know what made you change your mind, if it was me. But somehow, you suddenly just didn’t want to talk to me anymore, you didn’t want me in your life, and the worst part is; you didn’t even tell me why. You left me hanging crying myself to sleep every night wondering, what i did wrong, where it all went wrong, what i could do to make it ok again, and the sad part. It would NEVER be ok again. We would never be able to have the same ‘love’ the same ‘connection’ the same ‘spirit’ that we once shared. You broke your promise and it still haunts me. It haunts me that you lied about everything, you broke every promise we had ever had, you told me you loved me endlessly and that you would do anything to not lose me. But i was the one who was dumb. I didn’t see it, how could i not see it.
You simply hated me. You turned into everything you said, you’d never be, the boy you turned into is not the boy i fell in love with. And that’s why i’ll never be able to love you or see you the same way. But i’ll forever be in love with the one you used to be.