Leaving you was probably one of the hardest things I ever done. I still remember what your hand feels like in my hand. What it was like to wake up next to you. I applied for colleges in California just to be with you. But now that you’re gone I have no motivation for anything. I can’t get out of bed in the morning. I can’t look at stupid stuff like our favorite band or even elephants without crying. I just want you to know that even tho I left you, I still love you and would do anything for you. I know this is all confusing now but as time goes on you’re gonna thank me. It’s all gonna click. You’re finally going to realize you’re better off without me and you’re gonna find a better girl that’s not… well, like me. It’s been over 3 weeks now since I left you and it’s literally been the worst few weeks of my life. Waking up in the middle of the night with nightmares. I don’t leave my house. I don’t wanna go to work. I just don’t see the point in anything. You made me so happy.. and don’t even get me started on those beautiful eyes. The eyes I fell in love with. I never meant to hurt you, and I hope you understand that. You were truly my life. My everything. I’m just sorry it had to end like this. I’m sorry I hurt you. I’m sorry I made you drink. I’m sorry I made you feel as low as to want to take your own life. I’m just sorry for everything. You’re still my baby, and that’ll never change I promise. But out of all of this, I just want you to know how much I love you, and that I didn’t leave because there was someone else or anything like that, I left because I knew it was best for you.