So I decide to write this letter as a goodbye words can’t describe all the emotions that I’m feeling by saying bye to the one person I thought I could be with for the rest of my life! Shane…you are the best thing to ever happen to me and although you were also the one person that hurt me the most I don’t regret one second by your side. I’m not writing this letter to blame You nor judge you! But to let all these feelings out so I can move forward with my life and goals. I had so many questions I needed to ask you but I’ve decided I’m going to put those in the past where they belong. My therapies and analyzing made me realize all the ways I did wrong in what we had and I decided I don’t want to be that person that hurts the people she loves the most. that’s why I’m here today to tell you that I am very sorry for all the times I hurt you and all the times I was mean and ungrateful. I want you to know that even though at the time I didn’t know how to handle my emotions and say them appropriately my true feeling were nothing but love. This breakup made me realize so many things I was doing wrong and although I know I will never be perfect I do believe people change and I’m changing for better hopefully you will too some day. I know relationships are about making your other half happy and full of life. I hope that you’ll remember me by the good times from our first incredible date at Tuscan oven and waking up to dolphins at your condo to our 1 month in Jamaica that moment when we laid on the water on the inflatable I felt like nothing else mattered in the world because you were by my side. The weight lifting meetings, Disney( our tour around Mexico pushing little J around), our laughs/tickles moments when we snuck in the movies specially that night it was raining so hard and we went for it and soaking wet it was the best moment ever! Seriously there are so many amazing moments by your side that I’ll probably never be able to completely forget. I want you to know that I wish you nothing but the best in life I hope you find that one person that makes all your worries disappear and if it’s that new girl I’m happy for you! I heard about what happened to our baby legolas and although I didn’t like cats I will admit I cried and it made me very sad knowing he died and as much as I wanted to text you I held myself together and just prayed so much for you because I know how much kitty meant to you! This is the last time you will hear from me and I want you to know that you were and always will be the love of my life and even if we are not together I will always be there for you. Never forget that ok. I forgive you for being the one person that hurt me the most yet I am thankful that God put you in my life because those were the craziest most amazing 9 months! This relationship and breakup made me grow as a person in so many levels. Thank you! You’ve opened my eyes in many ways. My skin is thicker, my heart beats stronger. I am still me. I won’t change but for better because I love myself. All my quirks. All my hopes! I pray you never hurt another woman the way you hurt me!
Xoxo your one true love