It has been more than a year since the break up happened. I am still struck between the beautiful memories we made and the painful days you put me through. I know there is no going back to the love you once told was everlasting and forever. It hurts me even more when I think you were the one who wanted this relationship so badly in the college days. I really did not deserve this betrayal after all I have done to take care of you in every single way possible. I don’t know what went wrong, I don’t know from where did you get the heart to cheat on me, to deceive me, to shatter me, to kill all my trust. My entire family loved you like I did. They approved our love even before they were told anything. How did you get the courage to cheat on me. Never ever in my life I would have done that to you. Not even in my dreams. Where is that innocent girl whom I loved. Where is that innocent girl who loved me like crazy. I know you regret the things you did and you are sorry for hurting me and breaking my heart, but will it help us? Will it make everything normal. I know everything can be forgiven. But am not able to forget anything. Trust once broken is broken forever. Never I can trust you the same way I did before. Your innocence is lost. Being cheated on and betrayed is the worst thing you could do to a person who loves you. I badly want to move on in life. But still I am not able to. Its been exactly 415 days since you broke my heart. You realized you made a mistake only after 5 months since you broke up with me. I literally begged you every single day that I cannot live without you, but you didn’t even listen to me. Those first six months were literally like hell to me. I couldn’t eat,sleep, lost my reputation at my work place, got poor grades in appraisal, lost 15 kg in less than a month. Didn’t you realize how much you were important to me by then. At times I still feel the raw pain you caused me. But that’s okay. I started realizing that nothing stays the same. People change. Feelings fade. Nothing in this world is permanent. I wish you well now. May you find love and that person keep you happy. But one thing is definite, Nobody in this world can love you like I did. You will realize that in future. It still hurts to see you with another person, but I lost you the day you give someone else space in your heart. I am trying my best to move on now. Few days I feel stronger. Few days I feel very weak. I still cry at times. But that’s okay. Thanks for the lessons. You made me a stronger and better person. I now know the value of true love and trust. Thanks for being a part of my life. I wish you well. Take care.
Trying my best to move on