I just want to let you know that you will never be forgiven. The damage you have done to my soul is irreversible.Not a day goes by where I don’t think about the way in which you hurt and betrayed me. I try my best not to think about it and just block you out my mind, but the pain runs so deep. Just writing this brings tears to my eyes. I don’t know what you thought and came into my life. If you were unsure of your feelings, then you shouldn’t play with others. It hurts to know that you’re not the person I thought you were, it hurts to know that everything was clearly a lie.
If the feelings were not true, you could have told me rather than leaving without any explanation and again pretending to love me. I would have respected that. All these games of blocking me and what not made me feel so vulnerable. I don’t know what self-esteem and ego problems you are having but you should try to look beyond that.I have found that some people will always come back to you,the ones who are meant to be in your life.They will return somewhere down the road. Unfortunately, I do not believe you will ever return.
Initially, it was very difficult for me. Waking up everyday with so may thoughts in mind what wrong i have done,made everything so painful. But now i have realized that,it was never meant to be. I always miss that time when we were together and everything seems so right. Although we are no longer in each other lives, I know that there was a reason for us coming into each others lives. My mind knows that things can’t be same again but my heart still silently wishes for a miracle. You’re probably thinking I’ve forgotten all about you by now, but that’s far from it.
I have missed you ever waking day, and my heart still hurts, but I’m getting better.
I continue to smile and still go on without you.
However, I feel that the parting of us was for the best, because everything happens for a reason.
I know you don’t have the courage to give me a closure. So, i have accepted the things as they are. And i believe ALLAH has a better plan for both of us.