I’m lost.

I’m lost.

I’m lost.

LTME-postDear sona,
I know I am been acting like a complete idiot from past few days. But you know that was not me. Noting is going good in my life. And even if something is going good I just feel like I have lost the most important person in my life. I really didn’t meant whatever I said.
You don’t know where you stand in my life. I completely understand your decision and I do want the same. I too want to go as far as possible from your life. But I just can’t. It is just that I have gave you a billion reasons to leave and you have gave me a billion reasons to stay. I know I am the only one who left you for the silliest reason. But I believed you could fly very high and I knew that I will be the one because of whome you will not be able to fly as high as you can.
I have said some most mean things that I should have not. I just said that to hear it from you that I am important for you. And I know I was. It is all my fault that I left you but all I know is I can’t be happy without you in my life. You are the only person with whome I enjoy everything in my life. But I do also know that I don’t deserve a bit of your love.
I don’t understand how a person like you decided to spend whole of your life with a person like me. I didn’t proposed you first coz I was scared. I thought that this will ruin the wonderful relation we had. But it is not your fault. I was the only one who ruined this all.
Sorry for being the most terrible boyfriend. Sorry for the ignorance. Sorry for taking you for granted. Sorry for coming into your life. Sorry for hurting you again and again. Sorry for loving you. I never wanted this to end. I was never prepared for this. But what I did is I prepared you for all this.
You don’t have any idea how good person you are. You deserve someone wayyyyy more better than me. I promise you that someday soon I will get lost forever and will never come again to hurt you. Thank you for coming into my life and thank you for not coming again. Thank God this ended up before it was too late.
The day we just sat for 4 hrs just holding each other hands it was the most beautiful day of my life and I won’t forget it. Never.
Sorry for coming back into your life. It was just that my life is broken into pieces and only person could help is YOU. I know I have set a very bad example of love in your eyes. But someday soon you will meet someone who deserves you and will love you and will make you feel the most special person on the planet. You are perfect for me and I am not even close to perfect.
I love you and I will love you for my whole life. Thank you for being with me. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you for making me feel special and thank you for all that wonderful time. Please don’t hate me for whatever I said. I too want you to move forward in your life but it is too hard for me. But I’ll try my best.
Love you to the moon and back to the deepest ocean. You be the cutest of all and the most loving person I will ever meet. Sorry I have told a lot that I never meant. I hope you understand and try not to hate me.
I love you baccha and I miss you.

Yours forever,
Mr laddu.

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