This is a letter to my ex

This is a letter to my ex

This is a letter to my ex

LTME-postThis is a letter to my ex, who made me feel safe, who made me feel loved, wanted, needed even. This is a letter to my ex who made me laugh, who stopped me from killing myself, who put up with my eating disorder and my depression when it was at its worse. This is a letter to my ex, who at one point or another loved me. This is a letter to my ex who destroyed me.
This is a letter to my ex, who made the first move and chased me for week before I gave in. This is a letter to my ex who I despised working with before I was quickly charmed my his nature and personality. This is a letter to my ex, who made me so damn happy. This is a letter to my ex, who stayed with me when I was at my worst and made me laugh. This is a letter to my ex who made me comfortable with myself, who taught me how to love myself and him. This is a letter to my ex who couldn’t let me go.

This is a letter to my ex, who I defended to the near death and lost my best friend. This is a letter to my ex, that I didn’t care that I lost her because I had him. This is a letter to my ex, who put up with my awful car singing and my awful dance moves. This is a letter to my ex, who chose awful movies that we barely sat through without laughing our heads off. This is a letter to my ex, who got me addicted to the Walking Dead. This is a letter to my ex, who slowly turned against me.

This is a letter to my ex, who took me to his dodgeball games. This is a letter to my ex, telling him how much i loved watching him play dodgeball, loved the way it sparked his eye. This is a letter to my ex, who rambled constantly, even worse when he was high. This is a letter to my ex, that I loved watched ramble, loved watching him talk about something he loved. This is a letter to my ex, who used me for his own gain.

This is a letter to my ex, who also had a crazy ex, who made me uncomfortable. This is a letter to my ex, who didn’t stop her. This is a letter to my ex, who I would text every hour wanting to talk to him, because I missed him. This is a letter to my ex, who ignored me. This is a letter to my ex, who I watched drift away from me. This is a letter to my ex, who left me alone.

This is a letter to my ex, who even after we broke up, we still spoke and saw each other. This is a letter to my ex, that I trusted him even after we broke up to not sleep with anyone else. This is a letter to my ex, who promised me that he only wanted me. This is a letter to my ex, who lied to my face continuously.

This is a letter to my ex, who stayed with me through me coping with the abuse from my previous boyfriend. This is a letter to my ex, who raced to my house in the middle of the night to comfort me after an altercation. This is a letter to my ex, who stayed with me when we accidentally got pregnant. This is a letter to my ex, who supported me even when I lost her. This is a letter to my ex, who blamed me for losing her.

This is a letter to my ex, that after two weeks of not talking because he wanted me out of his life he walked back into my life. This is a letter to my ex, that I still loved you and loved that you missed me because I missed you so much. This is a letter to my ex, who told me how much he missed me and didn’t want me out of his life. This is a letter to my ex, whose house I went to that night and slept with him. This is a letter to my ex, who I felt safe with. This is a letter to my ex who I met at the club the next night and stayed the night and day with. This is a letter to my ex who drove me home laughing about the engine in his car and his awful driving. This is a letter to me ex who used me.

This is a letter to my ex, I’m so sorry. This is a letter to my ex, apologising for all the crap I put him through. This is a letter to my ex, apologising for my depression, my anxiety, my past and how badly I treated him. This is a letter to my ex, telling him how much I under appreciated him. This is a letter to my ex, saying I’m so sorry for not loving him better and showing him how much I do love him. This is a letter to my ex, apologising for the lies I told, for the non truths, for the betrayal, for not being honest at all times. This is a letter to my ex, who I also ruined, because I was selfish. This is a letter to my ex who ruined me.

This is a letter to my ex, saying that I don’t forgive you. This is a letter to my ex, saying how angry I am at you. This is a letter to my ex, saying that he contributed to me being a psycho. This is a letter to my ex, saying how annoyed I am that you ignored me, that you lied to me, that you slept with those other people. This is a letter to my ex, who destroyed my trust in him. This is a letter to my ex, who should have let me go. This is a letter to my ex, who also ruined things as well. This is a letter to my ex, not everything was my fault. This is a letter to my ex, who no matter what I will always be there for him.

This is a letter to my ex, saying that I’m sorry.

This is a letter to my ex, that I still incredibly in love with.

This is a letter to my ex, who didn’t chose me.

2 Comments

  1. Stormie Fondren 2 months ago

    I felt bad as I read that.. I’m sorry you went through all of that.. If you need anything I’m here

  2. Jasmine 1 month ago

    god this made me cry because I agree with everything you wrote, i feel like im still going through this, I can’t move on from the ex who didn’t choose me.

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