I just wanted to say…I forgive you. Not because I feel you need my forgiveness or anything like that, but because I need to say it for myself. I’m not entirely sure if you will see this, much less read it but like I said…this is something I felt the need to do, for myself.
I also wanted to say thank you. If it wasn’t for you, I’m not sure I would have become the person I have now. As bad as it was, and as much as it heart…I learned something about myself. That I could go through storms like that and survive. I mean, I know it could have been worse…a lot worse. But for me, it was all I could handle at the time, and allowed myself to learn from it. I learned how to be strong alone. I am also learning to love the sound of my feet walking away from things that are not meant for me.
From the bottom of my heart, I hope you have learned or are learning to do the same. I can say with great certainty and absolute honestly that I didn’t know what love was until I knew what love was not. At the end of the day, you really know when the time for something has past when you feel more for the memories made with a person than the actual person themselves. So, thank you for the memories, and thank you for the life lessons you didn’t even mean to teach me.
Maybe one day you will get to meet the new me and I will get to meet this new you…although I fear you may not recognize the new me. See…you don’t know this new me; I put my pieces back differently. But then again…I guess that’s what most people call growing up.
Most importantly, I wish you the best. I hope you find whatever and whoever makes your heart happy…but most importantly, I hope you are happy with the person you are. Happiness is an inside job after all.
So here is one final Goodbye. And good luck in all your future holds.