I used to know you

I used to know you

I used to know you

LTME-postWe met in such a way that was so impossible being on opposite sides of the world. Seeing that first message you sent me off of likes made my heart beat like never before. We both had nothing but hope in our hearts and took a chance to be together. You moved to the states and for once I felt the apartment was home because you were in it. Nothing made me happier than waking up next to you everyday knowing you loved me the way I loved you.
For three years I took care of you and we were always on the same page. We wanted to start a family and finally one month after we got married we were expecting our beautiful daughter together. During my pregnancy you were really amazing. Took such good care of me and I felt I had your emotional support, you really were a great spouse.
I don’t know how many times I read articles where it said some marriages don’t last after a child is in the family and it scared me. I shared my concerns with you and you always reassured me by saying “I could never live without you”
Our gorgeous daughter came into the world and I thought we were happy. Something in you had changed and I couldn’t reach you. So many times I asked you “are we ok?” And you would respond with “yes, I am just tired” I knew then in my heart that something wasn’t right. I thought so many times to myself why won’t he talk to me? All i ever wanted was to be a wife and mother. I cherished you and our marriage. I loved your daughter as if she was my own. You never made me feel as it was the three of us and then when our daughter came it was never the four of us. How could you not even talk to me or tell me you were unhappy? To wake up that day and find out you were “done with our shitty marriage” killed me. How I asked you could we work this out bc you never said you were unhappy and you became so short with me and just said no as if I didn’t matter to you. I don’t understand that you as a man had no problem leaving our amazing little girl at just two months of age and me, her mother.
After all I did for us. Working overtime to make ends meet and working almost 60 hours a week until I was 35 weeks pregnant. We were a team and you always told me we would be ok with whatever came our way bc we had eachother. I loved you for you and I loved you with all my heart. There was never no other. I can not understand how you could leave your daughter. You have become so horrible towards me, with the cursing, emotional abuse, and verbal abuse. I am still heartbroken how you could be mean to me and want nothing to do with out daughter. I now hate you because of who you have become. You are someone I never would have thought of as a life partner or mate in life. My daughter and I deserve much more than you could have ever offered us. She is an amazing little girl that bc you couldn’t control your words or provide for her you will never know. I am enough for her not only as her mother but as her father too, you disgusting excuse of a man.

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