I don’t know where to start with this all because my head is in a mess at the moment.
Right now I’m in my old bedroom at my mums trying to figure this all out as it’s one big shock!
You know I have always loved you Tasha and I still do.
You have shown me what love is and what it feels like to be loved. Every time you kissed me and our lips touched so softly, I could feel it. I got the same magical feeling as our first kiss. I could feel it when our hearts get so close they are beating as one. You are the beat of my heart, the soul in my body; you are me, because without you I am nothing. I loved you,still love you , you was my girlfriend, was my fiancée and my best friend.
You are the person I know I could turn to when I needed help – you are the person I looked at when I needed to smile and you are the person I went to when I needed a hug. When I am away, it is like I have left my soul at your side.
You have shown me how to live and you have shown me how to be truly happy. I want you to know that every time I smile, you have put it there. You make me smile when others can’t, you make me feel warm when I am cold. You have shown me so much love and so much more. I want you to know how much you mean to me. You are my whole world and I love you. Everytime I always think of that time when we first met on the field near my mums and you was walking Bailey boy and we walked down the canel, can you remember it when I could Bailey’s lead off and he was walking and not running off like he normally did. Oh I can remember that time when you and Alex decided to get pissed up of rosé wine and you was sick all over my brand new trainers. You always tell me to stop thinking about stuff like this but I guess you don’t think about them?? You know how hard it is for me right now every time I think it’s always about the good times and so of the bad. I just don’t know when to turn off! Oh and then there are blue eyed boy Tegan-James fucking hell tasha I’m in bits typing this! Because everytime I always see you face when I have him and it’s fucking hurts because I don’t want him to feel my pain!! You know I can always remember our day when we was in the hospital when you had to be induced and we watched that Comedy programme that you wanted to watch. All I can hear is a pop and you turned round and said Mum I think my waters have gone bear in mind the room smelt like fish and chips 😂!! The best 4 years my my life was with you and 3 of them was with our boy!!!
Fucking hell tasha I miss you like crazy!!!!
I just wish this would stop!!