We dated for about a week. You seemed awsome and I was completely in toxicated by you. You had a good job and a degree and you seem to be sweet and really care for me and understand me. I was a scorpio and you were a virgo and we just felt everything was so right. We met for our first date on a sunday, a week to the day we met and everything was good. You were a little heavier than I expected but at this point I didnt care. I liked you for you. You knew I had some insecurites and I agree I fucked up when I got paranoid and asked to look at your phone to see if you were talking to other guys. When you defensive I got let down but when you showed me I felt better. You seem to understand what happen and wanted to stay and work it out. But on Monday you changed, it was like a switch, you were cold and rude and just plain disgusting. You werent the girl I met. I regret opening up to you and letting you know me so well. The fact that you were fatter in person, hooked up on me on the first date etc and I still stayed with you but I had one issue that we could of worked on you bailed. You broke my heart, you told me I could be safe with you, you would never hurt me and i believed you. I really need to get a grip on my paranoia so i can trust and have a healthy relationship but you didnt need to bail. Maybe you werent right for me, you seemed low-key slutty and I wasnt even that attracted to you. Your eye bothered me to. You made werid moans when we hooked up like you were in pain and your faces looked like you were in pain. You fucked me up so much this week that im hating life. We could of had something good but then again i was never sure about you. Idk wtf is going on with me, I hate you and miss you all in one. I want a redo and I wish i never met you. I fucken feel like I love you but I feel like I hate you, why did you give up? I just wanted someone to help me build trust. I told you from the jump i need someone whose patient. We have to get to know one another. I cant believe you just bailed on me. Idek what to consider you now but I guess goodbye to my ex somthing I fucken miss you hate you want you back like you could of loved you never wanna see you wish I never met you fucken hate you wish you would come back.
I dont even know anymore,I cant describe the confusing pain i am going through….