Things ended badly for us. We were so different. I tried making it work but you didn’t. I think you loved me in the beginning but fell out of love after a while. I appreciate all the things you did for me , I really do. I know you loved me at some point. Nobody has ever done the things you did for me, the good and bad. I remember when you went on your knees the second time of us hanging out together to embarrass me in front of everyone at the restaurant. We wanted to get married but we had our family issues. Everything was against us. Every time you tried meeting me its either a car accident, jail for speeding or your family pressuring you to do things. You crashed 3 cars, broke a leg, burned your eye, lost money, went to jail, lost 2 jobs because we were so far you wanted to see me. I starved myself, failed college, lost my family and friends, traveled hundred of miles just to spend an hour with you. Just to see your smile. All our relationship was all about us trying to see each other.
There is so much more I wanna write but I won’t be able to finish. We were so crazy and nothing was normal about us or our relationship but I loved it.
Ali, I never lied about my love to you. I love you and I always will. I will always be watching over you. I can never replace you. I am mad at you for treating me like an asshole the last few months. I gave you a hundred chances to fix it but you didn’t want to. You ruined everything! I am mad at you for all the bad things you did to me but I won’t forget the good, I promise. You said you were gonna spend New Years with me. I waited but you never showed up. You turned off your phone and hung out with your friend. I hate you for lying to me. I hate you for making me wait for nothing. You did it all on purpose. I tried but you didn’t want to. I really tried to be with you.