I wanted to start by saying hello old friend. I always wonder how you’re doing. You’re someone I have never stopped caring about. You’re someone I never got tired of and someone I wanted to give all my love too.
You’ve been on my mind a lot lately and I can only hope that I run through your mind too.
Last time we spoke, you told me you proposed. Don’t get me wrong, I’m so happy that you found your happiness, I’m happy that you found what you have been looking for all along. You were my best friend, my love, my safety net, all I wanted was for you to be happy and find what did that for you, but I’d always hoped deep down it was me and you just didn’t see it yet.
Every time you had reached out to me, I was like a puppy seeing their humans after a long day at work. My tail would wag, my heart would pick up its pace, and I would start grinning. You were only checking up on me and even though I appreciated it, it left me more hurt every time you said goodbye. You told me about you’re new girl, and all your relationship troubles. The entire time I was thinking “come home, I’m still waiting for you”.
Know that every time I said I was happy for you, I meant it, but also know I was saying that while tears poured out. Know that this isn’t me trying to plea for you to come back, or give you a pity party. This is me telling you I love you. This is me telling you as much I wish that this is how I wished it would have worked out, I’m telling you that this was truly what was best for the both of us. You found the love of your life, and I found my passions.
I want you to know that I’m excited to see what you’re future holds and I hope to hear from you soon.