Being truthful, I accept the fact that I no longer mean anything to you. I miss you terribly. The amount of times I spammed you because you’d ignore my messages, I know has made it worse. It’s only because I miss you and truthfully, because I am in love with you. I take the blame for everything, the times we argued I was way too sensitive and got mad at you. Before I met you, I didn’t have a plan. And then you walked into my life. I was lost, but you showed me light. You showed me I deserved it. You were that light. I didn’t know what to do. I had never felt this before. So I did what I do to everyone. I pushed you away. I told you I needed time to figure things out and unfortunately that took longer than anticipated. So long actually that you got bored, and you left. You trusted me and I broke that trust. Now all I ask is that you allow me to try and earn back that trust. Trust that I may not deserve. But whatever has happened, whatever will happen, I promise you that I will be there no matter what. I will not lie to you again. You are my everything. I would drop anything to be by your side. I just want the chance to be yours. For good. I keep having this dream of you showing up and just jumping into my arms and everything is good in the world. But again. It’s just a dream. I know deep down you and I could happen but you won’t hear what I have to say. I forgive you for everything now. Now that I realize you were just trying to love me. Months have passed and I sit here listening to songs crying my eyes out because you are the only thing I ever think about and the only person I can truly say I have given my heart too. Kinda pathetic huh? But honestly, I miss you more than ever now, and it hurts…. I’ve never stopped loving you and, I never will.
I take the blame for everything