I lied

LTME-postJerkface, I accept the fact that I no longer mean anything to you and I have myself to blame for that. I lied to you about using drugs and where I got them. I had never done meth until my aunt introduced it into my life. I thought I was strong enough to not become an avid user, but I was so wrong… I was so afraid to ask you for help out of fear you would walk away… I should have been stronger. I never imagined I would ever become a person who lied and hid things from the person I loved so much, but I did and I can never express the regret and sadness that I will always carry with me for that. You were more than the man I loved. You were my best friend and my heart breaks knowing what I’ve done. I never cheated on you, not EVER! I only saw you in that aspect so please believe that if nothing else. You trusted me and I broke that trust. I really wanted to stop… I just didn’t know how…I was surrounded by it. I’ve started making the necessary changes to get myself back to where I was before drugs and I will do whatever it takes to be drug free. I’m so sorry for the hurt I caused you and for what it’s worth I truly love you with all my heart now and always.You will never stop being “My Person” if only in my heart from a distance. One of my most treasured memories is the way you looked at me the first time you told me that you loved me. My heart melted…


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