Goodbye

LTME-postDear Michael
I cannot believe I am writing you this “letter”. I hope it makes me feel better in a liberating way…
As you know I went through a lot in my life but this break up is one of the most devastating ground breaking thing I’ve ever gone through. I’m going to be honest, I know you’re fine, and unlike any other normal human being, I do not wish your happiness, it’s unfair I have to go thought this pain and suffering while you’re fine. You put me through hell I should be the one who benefits from this.

What we had was powerful incredible and so damn passionate not only did i have the chance of feeling loved and being with you I also had the best friend in the world. You may not see it the same way or remember it like I do and I wish you did because you would finally understand why I’m so god damn broken.

I have a few questions,
Why did you ask me to marry you if you weren’t at all planning on doing so?
Why did you give up on us and didn’t try to fix it?
I know it wasn’t perfect but it was love.
Was it unrequited love..? Was it all one sided?

I know I need to let you go but as unhealthy as it was I lived through YOU. My happiness depended on you. I depended on you.
It’s hard but I’m going to let you go just like you want but that means you can’t come back whenever you want. You never respected me you always did what you wanted without questioning how I felt. I don’t deserve that…
so unless you actually are coming back and start respecting me, trying to fix issues instead of just breaking things off then it’s time to let go of each other forever.

One day maybe you’ll experience a break up but this time you’ll be the broken one and you’ll finally be the loser who writes a letter on a website she’s never going to see. Maybe you’ll understand why I cry since “it doesn’t help with anything”.

All the times I said “adieu” I didn’t mean it I didn’t want to, I couldn’t, I wasn’t strong enough but I think I am now.
Give me time to heal to find myself again and be happy through myself.

Adieu. Goodbye.

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