Hey. So… I get it, but I don’t. I get that you didn’t care about how I was or what I was doing or what I had going on, and I know you couldn’t be bothered to ask. I get that you have your issues, and I think you just want people to care about you. I get it. I get that I was a low priority from the beginning, and I should’ve noticed that. I get that the relationship “wasn’t worth fixing” because you didn’t care if I was around or not.
I just don’t get why I deserved to have my time wasted. I don’t get why you don’t love me back. I don’t get why you managed to choose every single other person before me. I don’t get why you had to talk shit about me while we were together, and I don’t get why no one told me. I don’t get why you went out of your way to lie to me about things that didn’t matter. I don’t get how you could stay with me, even after you lost feelings. I don’t fucking get it.
It’s been 4 months since we broke up, and two weeks since we last talked. I can’t wait until I never have to see your face or your dysfunctional clique ever again. I can’t make sense of why you are the way you are, but I can’t keep looking for answers.
I love you so much, and I honestly just don’t get it.