M.O

I just want to say thank you. Thank you for finally ending something I didn’t have the guts to end. I knew long before things come to a head that you were not my perfect guy, I knew I needed to do something but my love for you kept you there.

You did something that I couldn’t overlook, you broke my heart and my soul and those of my children.

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Derwood,

Thank you for a life lesson I will never forget.

When your ex stalked our family and said she would break us up, you promised me you would not let it happen.

Little did I know you stayed in touch with her. (you always said I was too trusting)

You let her in, your choice, but you didn’t have the balls to tell me. Instead you sabotaged our relationship, you treated me as though I were beneath your magnificence…

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You were one of the smartest men (intellectually) I have ever met, which makes it even crueller the twist of fate that landed you with OCD and it’s difficult neuroses.

Living with you was tough. Looking back I often had butterflies in my tummy trying to soothe you, making sure I didn’t do anything “wrong” (such as bring shoes into your ‘clean’ spaces) to keep your emotions in some sort of equilibrium.

I was only 24 when we were together so children were a long way off for me anyway, but when you said you didn’t want children I remember feeling surprised/shocked and thinking “ahh, he’ll change”. » Read the rest of this entry «