Baby, i know what we felt was real but it’s not possible that i can love you still. Thank you for being my first and giving me the love i thirst. I thank God the man from above for giving me you and showing me how to love. I don’t care what people will say but i just want you okay. You are the one that i love and yes i am saying goodbye. I can’t get my life back because i know you were my life. I love you, goodbye.
I am not really good at words. I am not even a vocal person. Just a day from now was our supposed to be 4th anniversary and it was breaking my heart. I already planned my future together with you. We haven’t talked for more than a year when you broke-up with 2 years ago. I thought I already moved on from you but you decided to come back, accepted you again in my life. We engaged to a long distance relationship and risked it all. As you have said, I’ve been cold and reserved for 4 years. I haven’t told you how much you mean to me because of my stupid walls.
There’s just so much on my mind and heart that I just want to tell and say to you. It might not make sense but try to understand. First of all, I love you. you were there for me when nobody else was. You made me laugh, you made me cry, but most of all, you kept my secrets. Love makes us do stupid things; we fought, we yelled, you ran, I cried and left. But we came back months later, the only thing I couldn’t stand about you is that you weren’t honest. You lied to me about everything, and I fell for it. I had an ectopic pregnancy with your child and you’re in Florida with some broad. WE did that. We have our names on each other, we went on TV.. Damn. I know I’ve said this so many times saying “I give up, I’m done, Leave me alone..” but deep down, I still never gave up on you, I’m not done, and don’t leave me.
I’m so sorry, I didn’t think things would happen this way. I honestly loved you and love the memories we have. I know I was your first boyfriend, but I still had baggage from my first. She broke me in ways I didn’t know I could’ve been broken. S, only helped me out of that hell I fell into. She became my best friend, I never had feelings for her she was only a rebound. I never lied when I said I wouldn’t date her, I never lied when I said I didn’t find her attractive. She became my sister one I loved as family and I believe everyone I see as family is beautiful. I never lied to you. Our relationship wasn’t a lie. It may only have been 6 days but I’m already a new person. I just want to fix what we had, all the problems we ever had. There fixed through better communication, just give it a chance. I’m sorry, I just want to fix things. But I’ll always love you.
Hi, you probably don’t want to hear from me but I cant help myself to send you an email. In this case I probably know shes right next to you reading this and if she is, say hi to her.
I just want to make myself feel free. I know how much i hurt you before and i know that you’re happy now, with her.
MAHAL KONG JENEROSE
Matagal na din ang nakalipas pero bakit ikaw parin?
Kada makikita kita
naaalala ko yung mga oras na Masaya tayo
at mga Panahong magkasama tayo.
It’s been almost 3 months since our break-up and every single day you still cross my mind. Be it bad memories or good memories, your image still lingers in me and my heart hurts so bad whenever I think of you. I admit I thought I was on my way to getting over you and that I would vow to not talk about you or stalk you on your social media sites anymore but I guess I let myself down. Just like how I let you down.
Seeing you having a blast with my friends and sharing secrets with them made me feel really left out and in pain. I hated you and them for a while (childish, I know), because I was mad that they chose your company over me and that you did nothing to show any remorse whatsoever. Then I figured that maybe I was just thinking too much as usual and that maybe you already tried your hardest in moving on in your own way; we’re just too different.
I said I was more sorry than words can. All I want is your forgiveness, nothing more. Everything I have said has only made you angrier, and I am now tired of trying. I want only for you to be happy. I just didnt think you could treat me like this when I tried so hard to be the best I could for you. I made my mistakes, and I own up to all of them. I just wish you would listen and look passed your anger.
July 20th, 2014 § 0 comments § Posted in I wish you well, It's over, move on, Just want to say sorry, My awesome new life, Still heartbroken, What I wish I'd told you § Posted by crying, to cleanse of the past
On our third date you asked me if I believed in fate. I said no. (I am a hopeless romantic and in our breakup I have felt the cold hard slap of reality hitting me in the face and waking me up to the truth.) My answer was actually yes. You are my solemate. I knew that from the minute I met you. It was confirmed on dates 2, 5, 8, 15, and every day after that. Yes, you have a freight train of baggage. So do I. Trust me, I could have dealt. But you bailed at the first sign of storms. You did not break me though. You did not add to my baggage. You freed me from it. All the promises you made me that you did not uphold- I honestly believe you meant them when you said them. I still believe you and trust you completely, despite the fact you have hurt me to my core. From now one, I don’t ask for words; I don’t trust words. Actions are what matters. I will keep my heart open and will get hurt again. I refuse to allow someone who was so cavalier with my feelings ruin me for others.
Hi hon (Aa),
first i just want to tell you that i love you, from the first time that i saw you until im writing this letter. hindi pa ako nakaka move on hanggang ngaun, sobrang nasaktan ako sa nangyari nung iniwan moko basta basta ng walang dahilan. lagi kitang hinihintay na bumalik sakin, lagi kong tinatanung kung bkit moko iniwan. bat ganun? bat binitawan moko kung kelan masaya nako sayo, kung kelan na feel kona yung comportable na kasama ka. hon mahal na mahal kita, ayoko pang sumuko…
This is a letter of apology to the both of us for how long it took me to let things go.
My Munchkin .
It’s been a year and 2 months not talking to you.It’s hard and i wish i could say that i moved on completely but it’s not that easy to forget someone you loved from day 1. 3 years down the drain like that.When you met me i was broken and i remember you saying “it feels amazing when you realize you no longer want the person that walked away from you”. We started hanging around together and as feeling grew we both knew we were going to end up together.
I don’t know what else to do.. i don’t know how i’d express my feelings. it’s been 3 years and i still think of you. There’s never a day goes by that i don’t think of you. how awesomely gorgeous you are. how precious your smile is, how your eyes says everything about you..
it hurts so much… it hurts that every night i dream of you, and i wake up you’re not beside me. All i can do is dream.. it’s the only way i can touch you, talk to you, hug you… it feels so real.. there are times that i just wish i wouldn’t wake up.
It’s been 1 year 1 month and 11 days since we broke up. Through all those time, I always miss you.
During our long distance relationship, we struggled for our love. I still remember every detail how we arrange a plan to visit each other, as natural as possible so parent won’t suspicious. I still remember the burst of happiness when we finally can meet, the fallen tears when time is over, we have to say goodbye and never know when we will be able to meet again.
I guess I never saw it coming. I never saw the day when you wouldn’t want to try anymore. I was cold and distant towards you, and I’m sorry for that. I say things that I don’t mean. You were the first girl I ever loved, who knows if I can ever love again – with all the pain this has brought me I don’t see it happening. You are so quick to forget about me and just move on with your new job and new friends, even going on dates with other guys. What can I do? I wanted to be the perfect guy for you, because I loved you so much. I wasn’t good enough though. I wasn’t ambitious, career oriented, or anything that you wanted. I loved you though, and I did everything for you. I drove you to your EMT classes; I made appointments for your EMT tests when you were about to just give up. I did everything to try and help you succeed. You have no idea what it’s like to try so much and still get knocked down.
Dear — :
I went to Alex’s the other day. Found out that you’re fine. Found out that you’ve gotten over it. And that made me… feel quite lame. I kept on having this panicky fear that you were going to be in my classes next year and you’d be doing your existence with friends and things while I drifted through my classes in a signature — Limbo (just realised you won’t know what that is because you haven’t read my previous letters – oops).
Just reading over that last sentence makes me feel sick. It’s not just that that scenario would suck, but it’s that I was scared of it. What the hell kind of person did I turn into? I don’t care about these things. I move on. These have been one of the worst couple weeks of my life. I let you do that to me. I let you because I still had some hope that maybe something amazing and cliche would happen and that perhaps we could still go on.