Your heart was vindictive, your lies were continuous, your greed had no boundaries. You tried so hard to make me fall. You did not break me. I am still standing.

Well….I wish I told you how much I really, truly loved making fun of ykiu behind your back. Calling you fat. A pig. Sick. Slimy. Gross. Not a man nor woman. Disgusting. Absolutely vile. Get the point?

My new life is so amazing…I have this super sexy boyfriend who’s actually strong! Not a weakling like you. He has manliness, you have nothing. Have fun with your whores, I’m livin’ a new life not regretting leaving you behind.

Sure, it took getting rid of my old closest friend, but it was sure as hell worth it for my new bestie, and my sister!

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I tried so hard to get you to understand me.  I spent hours and hours talking and listening and trying to understand and learn and I really thought that you got it.  When all the shit hit the fan, I had no more energy to pour into debate with you.  You are right about my shortcomings… the way I communicate or lack thereof.  But I didn’t have anything left to give.  I think we met at a bad time and rushed into things I wasn’t ready for.  You are still loved and missed daily.  I miss your intelligence and our talks.  I miss laying in your arms.  I hope you are able to find someone who can be what you need and what I was not able to be.  I wish it could have been me.

Dear Trouble,

Your ineptitude of self awareness is amazing for a social work major. You will never get another girlfriend like me. Even with all your stupid, immature shit I was the nicest and most understanding girl there ever was. You even said it yourself if you’d remember life without your grudge tinted glasses.

The only things I ever did wrong were things you told me were fine even when I directly asked you. And when you broke up with me I was somehow supposed to have known all this stuff you never told me the truth about?

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You broke up with me and requested a friendship. It’s only until now I feel able to be a true friend to you. But in reality, I still love you. Even though you might not have believed me down the road of the rocky relationship that we previously had, I’m really trying to be your friend out of the love I have for you. Even though it really kills me. In that month of not talking to you, I was mentally and emotionally preparing myself for this. But when I interact with you, it’s really hard to fight the urge to smile like a fool and kiss you. You are ever so dedicated, inspirational, and special to me that I can’t even fathom. My love for you transcends dimensions if not more.

Hey you,

I’m still in love with you. We spent 9 years together, this kind of love doesn’t go away overnight, knowing that you don’t love me anymore hurts so much and it takes so much energy just to get through the day. We always laughed together, shared our lives together, our ups and downs and secrets together. When I came home from work and you were sat on the sofa crying, telling me you thought we had grown apart, you broke my heart. It was so completely out of the blue, I had come off my birth control a month before and you knew this. To say you had felt like this deep down for a while hurts even more. I feel like such a fool.

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Thanks for the last 6 months…

Thanks so much for trying to get another women to marry you and have your children whilst telling me the same story! I actually believed we were going somewhere  – you really fooled me until I found that email to her!

Thanks for letting my son get to know you and love you – it’s awesome telling him every day that we can’t see you anymore and then watching the tears roll down his face.

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Mahal,

It’s only this night when it finally started to sink in that the unrehearsed symphony has finally came to an end.

Regrets- I thought I’d never had any. But the fact that this is something serious compared to what has happened in the past, I felt sorry for myself for not being able to make the most out of everything I can do that night.

I should’ve hugged you the tightest way I could as I won’t be able to feel the warmth and comfort of your body again. It could have been a proof that I’m very much willing to be like Alice since your body is a wonderland.

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You meet someone in your life, who no matter how bizarre it seems at that very moment, impacts upon you. Just a stranger, next the person you spend thinking about all day, all night.

There are honestly days I wish I hadn’t met you for all the bad things that happened between us. But I would experience them all over again just for a single good thing we shared. I would put it in past tense and say ‘I loved you’ but that would be lying.

I love you.

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Nothing can make you feel more deeply unnerved and overwhelmingly freed than the realisation you spent over thirteen months of your life having an intimate relationship with an emotionally defunct human vacuum. I could go on with an inspiring platitude about how I’m so much more #woman #blessed #grateful for my #freshstart and #nulyf but honestly, I’m just so embarrassed and ashamed that it took me over a year to completely understand the impact that dating a premium-grade parasitic sociopath had upon my health.
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Dear S,

I just wanted to say that I still love you with all of my heart. No matter what I do or who I meet, no one will ever compare to you and the feelings you gave me. I know that no matter where we are in life I am always going to love you with all of my heart. Please take me back. I love you…

It’s been four months since we broke up. Honestly, the feeling of you being there is still so fresh. Sometimes I really wished it was a nightmare. Going back to the old us again. I have always loved you and will always do. I miss you a lot. I really hope to tell you this. But you seemed like you have moved on and so do I. Have you heard of this before? If you truly love a person, wish him the best even if he is with someone else. Yes, I agree. I know that love isn’t a temporal thing. If it was, then Jesus would actually take back His love for us by maybe taking back the gift of salvation from us.

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Dear David,

I still can’t believe that you don’t care about us anymore… Where the fuck did your love go? I know you’re happy with someone else…

I wish I could be happy about that but I’m not. It’s been so hard for me. I never thought my love for you was so strong, today I was smelling your sweater you left here I wanted to remind my self about that weird smell of yours… I know I shouldn’t feel the way I feel for you anymore, yes I haven’t called you or even looked for you because you don’t deserve all this love I feel for you. You broke my heart…

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To J,

If you loved me so much, why did you not even trust me to fix my flaws? That’s what people do when they’re in love, right? They have their ups and downs, but they work it out because they trust each other, overcome the issues, and become even stronger. But you said that all those times I said sorry, I didn’t mean it. Why? Instead of asking me to talk about it, you tested me and then started acting completely nasty and cold-hearted. I asked you what I did wrong, and you said “I don’t want to talk about it.” But somehow, I was supposed to figure out for myself what I did wrong, and then apologize?
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You know on September 14, 2012 when you so eloquently dumped me for deciding to be abstinent, you really broke my heart. Almost as much as catching an STD and trying to convince me that I gave it to you, cheating our WHOLE relationship, beating me, calling once a month, and forgetting to inform me I was a booty call. You know Kevin, I actually loved you, sadly more than I loved myself.
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