Anh Yeu,
I still can’t get the words out of my head when you said you were done with us. Those words cut me like a knife and for that my eyes are accompany with tears every night I sleep. You were my first love and I still love you so much. Even though I know the truth that we can’t be together because we are not a match, but my heart does not want to let you go. The first time we had broken up, it really tore me apart. The second time hurts even more. Even though you said we can still be friends and I am grateful for that but my heart still aches every time. Everywhere I go and everything I do reminds me of you. I know I’m hurting myself even more for putting myself in this. I need to get out of this rut and get myself together or it will ruin me.
Eating and sleeping is getting hard for me now. I just wish I had treated you better and show you how much I love you and care for you. But it’s too late. Moving on is so hard. We’ve been through so much that I cannot simply just move on that easily. Maybe it is easy for you but it’s extremely difficult for me. I know I am strong even though I don’t believe it but I will get through this. But for the time being it is going to be tough. I’m just so heartbroken right now it’s driving me crazy and I feel like I might just lose it. Just remember that I will always love you no matter what. Maybe we can be together in the next life time….
love you forever and always
I see you write in Vietnamese now:)
I know this is written for me as by the wordings you have said. As usual you always manage to make me smile and cry all in one. You will be pleased to know since that letter to God I haven’t been on here anymore as there is nothing I can do or say to you how much I love you. If only could hold you in my arms & whisper everything that I so want to say to you…..it is but a dream. I hope you know by what you’ve done you have cost me my job & career. It is ok, I do not blame you or am upset, not much upsets me these days, only the loss of the love of my life-You. I put you before everything, my work, my friends, my family, even my dog, as you were everything to me & still are. I can picture you now even after so long, your eyes, your voice, your laugh, your everything! That is how much I love you! You say time has been gone so long? Really? What is six months? It is not that long? Listen to your heart? And only your heart? Not the voices of others? We were so good together & you know we were, we just had to be able to talk the way we are able to now? You my dear are the one woman I would marry in an instant, I have never been bedazzled by another like you. Yes I should have done other things but I didn’t because I loved to be with you as you were my world & that is all that mattered to me. I still say to you I have not being with another or wanted to since you. I read your messages about thinking you were pregnant, then it was a false alarm? I can say I wish it was only mine lol. I miss you babylious & I love you like no other as you are “True Love”. Time has no meaning my love. After reading all the things you write on many sites I am amazed to say how beautiful all the things you write are & if only you talked to those you write about instead of those on paper you may find it all so much easier to communicate your wants and wishes? My heart goes out to you young lady & I only have one wish in life? And that is to be your man. Nothing more nothing less. I love you.