You’re a gutless, spineless, loud mouth lying SOB

“Reich”

I can not believe the mess that you are in now and me getting dragged down with you simply because you could not keep your word, you could not keep your faith, and most importantly, you could not keep your damn zipper up!

When you got upset with me over something so trivial last year, I asked you if I was just a game for you in the last 4 years? You did not reply to me. You would never reply to me whenever I’ve got you cornered. I did not realized it then, but now I figured it is part of your cowardice. The bravado that you painted yourself with, oh how brave and mighty you made me believed you are. Reality is your bravado is nothing but  a figment of your imagination, just like the many tales, dreams that you created to seduce me and your current whore.

Having spent so many times with you in the last year, it is now clear to me that you are nothing but a depressive, personality disordered, gutless, spineless, loud mouth lying SOB. A charming one I must give that to you. All those years that we dated, your thoughtfulness, your caring ways were nothing but a superficial one to suit the moment. Or maybe because you knew you could use me.

I just can not believe that before I left you in Asia last year to return to Europe, you were in tears and very scared but you could have come with me, but you won’t. I was ill within weeks of arriving back home. In the beginning you showed your concerns and I was heartened. Then the 2nd time I was hospitalized, your replies to my texts and emails started to slacken. After I got out of the hospital for the 2nd time, there was only one email from you and none of the texts you claimed to have sent. Worse, my brother told me you’ve met someone, a 23 year old and you were smitten. You denied it, said “she’s just a friend” and is showing me around the city.I believed you because you were always a stickler for honesty, you low life, lying scum!

But what made it worse was when you yelled at me for waking you up early in the morning when I wanted to talk to you after I was discharged from the hospital. I was reaching out for you, you low-life bastard! I’d been so sick, I wanted the man I trusted most. But no. You hang up on me and refused to answer your phone.  You could have just stabbed me in the heart with a knife, that would have been bearable.

I asked you recently if she was with you the day you yelled at me for waking you up and you denied it. But lying bastard that you are, and her opening her legs for you within 2 weeks of meeting you, I really don’t believe anything that comes out of your mouth now. In fact, looking back to our 5 years, I can count on one hand (not even that!) the promises that you made and came true, and that was only the dinners that you promised. The swimming lessons, the massages, the traveling around Asia which we both loved, our dream retirement home we were gonna build were nothing but a figment of your defective mind. Everything could have still been possible if not for your anhedonia and apathy. But now, this whore has taken all that, your dreams, my dreams, our dreams.

Following my illness, months passed and you were trying to keep up the communications, but they were lacking in warmth, they’re not the same. My gut feeling was telling me that you had someone new. but still, you kept denying it. December 2013, my father was dying, again I was trying to reach out to you, but you again ignored my messages. It was not until Dad’s death that you sent a one sentence condolence text.

Fast forward to Feb. 2014 and I managed to get leave from work to come see you. Upon arriving in the city, you refused to see me for 2 days citing not feeling well. I even cut my appointment on the 3rd day so I could accompany you to your appointment with your Doc. But you left early, deliberately avoiding me.

Looking back now, I know that that was so you won’t get seen to be in my company because the hotel and restaurant staff where might tell your slut that I arrived. And all these times, you kept denying a relationship with her, you’re still maintaining “she’s just a friend”. Even when she came to your hotel room while I was out, and she left after telling her I was staying in the same hotel, I asked you at the time “are you having a relationship with her?” And you replied “no”. I then asked you, “why would she get upset that I’m staying here?” you said “oh, she’s got it in her head that I’m her BF”.  I then asked you “how could she just waltzed into your hotel room when there’s guards and staff at the entrance”?  You told me that the guards are friends of hers, that she often comes to the hotel to use the wi-fi. But I did not buy your story, but I kept my mouth shut. We went for drinks that evening. The restaurant waitresses asked you what happened to your other GF. I looked at you while you told them “shit happens”. Again I asked you if you were having someone else and you said “no”. Geez Reich, did you enjoy telling all those lies to me? God, you must have been laughing once you were alone, you scum!

We went to my brother’s place next day and you got a call from her which you took out of my ear shot. When you returned, you told me that she asked you why you did not say good bye. I asked you “how would she knew that you’d checked out and with me?” your reply “she has spies at the hotel”. I did not make any comment. You must have read my mind because then you said “there’s never anything there in the first place M.”.

We checked into the local hotel in my town, the receptionist told me you were bringing women there, the waitresses at our favorite restaurant were telling me you had a new GF. But I did not let on to you what I was hearing because you’d deny it. When we caught up with my sister in law, she told me that based on your whore’s body language that you were having a relationship, and that you were even giving her money. You could have just kicked me in the gut!

We were together, you were back to your normal self, the old Reich that I knew only when you were taking extra doses of your pain medications and mixing them with alcohol. We even talked of having babies. You told me that if I won’t agree to having babies with you, you’ll do it with your whore because she was younger and she’s a lot like me in many ways: hard working and smart. But you continued your denial of having relationship with her.

I had to leave you again to return to Europe, you accompanied me to the capital and we spent my last 2 nights together. But you weren’t the same. We did not even spend the night on the hotel’s balcony like we did last year. And no wonder because you could hardly wait to make an arrangement to see your gold digging whore when you returned home.

Three weeks after I left you, you wanted to talk to me. You made me promised that I’ll be your friend whatever happens. My stomach went into a knot. You could not bear to utter the word, I did. Asked you “is she pregnant?” There was a long pause before you replied “yes”. I felt I’ve just been hit by a ton of bricks. All I could utter was “so you’ve been having sex all along”. And you said “yes”. I felt my whole world crumble. You could not deny it anymore.

Now everything is revealed, you lying bastard! Why the lies over and over and over? It’s almost like a pathological lying!

In the course of the next few days, you reached out to me and I agreed to talk to you. But you did not liked what I had to say. I told you she’s nothing but a Gold digging whore who is trying to manipulate you into marriage or on going monetary support to better her life. And she deliberately got pregnant to achieve this. But infatuated that you are, you insisted it was love! Get real asshole! You are an old man to her with money!! That is all she was after and you could not see this! You even tried telling me that she might actually have genuine feelings for you? You are fucking delusional! Now my brother tells me she is pressuring you to buy a large house or condo! And you still could not see her real motives for pursuing you?? When will you wake up? She’s already ruined our lives because of your lust for 3rd world young flesh, you fat old bastard!

I told you that I felt so insulted that you even likened me to this low-life woman. She is as immoral and conniving as the rest of her kind, short-sighted and won’t care to gamble with a child’s life as long as she thinks she can get away with it. How dare you even compare me to her! She does not have any morality and her so called intelligence just because she’s got a supposed degree in education (from a 3rd world country!) is nowhere near like my education that’s gained from the west! You then apologized and acknowledged you made a mistake by comparing her to me. Then you admitted that you are going to pay for her maternity costs because you are her boy friend! You finally admitted it, you fucking low-life bastard! You even admitted “I have feelings for the girl”. Sure! Feelings being generated by the little head! You hardly know the slut! And look where she’s brought you to? Into the darkness of uncertainty and depression because of her self-centered needs.

Last time we talked you told me your whore does not want you talking to me. So you are obeying her now? Another lie that you told me. Back then you told me no woman can control you and I admire you for that. But now this whore is trying to do exactly that! And I know why you are bending to her:  because of her youth! You are 28 years older than her! You’re old enough to be her father, a grandfather to her even! You should be ashamed of yourself, Reich! Shame on you, shame on you!! Well, good luck with your bastard and whichever other whores you’re gonna hook up with, because knowing you, you are not gonna get “caged” for long and as you continue to aged, those whores are just gonna suck your money that we both worked hard to win. If I had known you were gonna betray me, I wished I should not have helped you with that retirement, you fucking, lying low-life bastard. I sure damned hope Karma will take from you what is rightfully mine! I would rather see that money go to the starving children than see that whore enjoy it!

Your current whore might think she has/can control you but soon you will get disillusioned and leave. And oh, that’s if your multitude of ailments don’t get a bite of your ass first!

By then I could not care less. Have a screwed up life asshole!!! Keep enjoying your miserable life and depression!