My awesome new life

My awesome new life

My awesome new life
Walking away from such a toxic person as you is prolly the best thing I ever did, you have moved on and within less than a week after my departure you were talking to someone else and in less than a month were already in a relationship with them… You post all of your I love you’s on Facebook, already talking about moving in together call it whatever you like, it all seems to be done with smoke and mirrors.. I do still care in alot of ways, but in most ways I don’t..

I let you rule my life for 5 years on and off every 3-6 months, you always manage to say the right things when you come courting like you do.  You fill my head with hope and dreams and then in 3-6 months you rip them apart, its every 3-6 months because thats about as long as you can wear that mask and hide who you really are, I did everything for you and didn’t even get the bare minimum in return.  I am worth it and I deserve so much better than anything you ever wanted to offer me.. The name calling, the throwing things at my head…
My life may not be perfect but as I work towards the recovery of the damage you did, by the way you owe me $60 a week for the therapist you sent me too, I wish I could say I wish you well but I really don’t wish you well.   You are poison and you poison anyone and everything around you.  Your new girl is going into this with blinders on as you play out your relationship on Facebook.  Wonder who’s benefit that is for, is it her’s or mine, most days I think it’s for mine.
You mistake lust for love and you are now officially dating Broom Hilda.  You downgrade every time but yanno, she didn’t take my man, she took my problems.  You will never be allowed to hurt me again in anyway, shape for or fashion.  I will never be the option in your life that you seem to always want me to be again.  I always made you a priority even above and beyond my own needs… I can honestly say for once my heart is starting to fill with hate for you… You know what they say about Karma it always comes home to you, well one day it shall return to you and you will miss me and look back, but I won’t be behind you, I will be so far in front of you that you won’t ever see me or be able to catch up with me again….

1 Comment

  1. S 6 years ago

    You’ve left me bust broke down 3 times now ash. Trashing me and putting all the fault on me. Im not seeing anyone. Im stuck picking up the pieces. Im glad your doing better. And have the person you so desired. Your right its time to cut ties. Its been to hard for both of us. I look forward to and ill forget you the way you always do me.

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