Dear Jordan,

What can I say at this point? It’s been months since we’ve had a positive meaningful conversation. Over half a year since we broke up. Plenty of time after we both started dating again. Still here we are, both heart broken. At least I am. I don’t know what you are thinking anymore. I don’t know how to think of you.

However, that isn’t too bothersome to me. Every day I try and focus on me, but every day I think about you. I try my best to think about the good, because before these last 6 months, we had a wonderful summer and a beautiful 5 years together. Do you remember the pool date? The time we went to Miami? All of the formals and proms and parties where we went together? We were obsessed with each other. We couldn’t get enough of each other, and I still can’t get enough of you. I truly love you like I have never loved before. I don’t know if I will ever love like this again. Even if I did, you will always be my first true love. Always have a big chunk of my heart. Always will remind me of your existence just by seeing a persian cat, spongebob, cherry blossoms or foyers. No amount of distractions will keep your shining smile out of my minds eye. And it doesn’t bother me. It makes me happy that, that is what I remember of you.

I love you Jordan. I always will.