This isn’t how it was supposed to go

This isn’t how it was supposed to go

This isn’t how it was supposed to go

LTME postI’ve been reminiscing about all the moments we spent together, about all the memories we made.
I ask to myself “What happened to those promises, to all that we had, to the future we were supposed to have?”
I saw us together.
I saw me old with you by my side.
I saw you in my wedding as my bride.
I saw you as the mother of my child.
I saw me sharing my accomplishments with you.
Sadly, it won’t be like we planned.
I just want you to know that I will always love you.
I don’t think I’d ever love a girl that much.
I wish there was a time machine and go back and start again.
so I don’t act stupid again,
so I don’t make the same mistakes that made me look like a complete idiot.
I know you loved me a lot, that’s the reason why I’m crying, because your love made me so happy. It gave a reason to wake up everyday. Every day I would woke up with a smile because I knew I was going to spend my day with you, laughing, talking or just expressing our love to each other.
I honestly can say that was the happiest I’ve been, and I don’t think i would ever be that happy in my life.
Even though we ignore each other, and we pretend the other person doesn’t exist, deep inside we both know it wasn’t supposed to be like this.
I will always love you.
I know I insulted you, but you have to understand that was my broken heart speaking.
You might hate me, and I understand
I just wanted to get this out of my chest, because the pain is overwhelming.
The sadness is killing me day by day.

8 Comments

  1. Letter To My Ex 9 years ago

    I’m so sorry you’re going through such pain. There’s not a lot of solace anyone can give you right now, but I just wanted to reach out anyway and say that it will get better, even though it doesn’t feel like it ever will. Rachel x

  2. Holly 9 years ago

    I know exactly how you feel. I’m dealing with the exact same pain. I will always love him, forever and it won’t change. Just know you’re not alone!

  3. sweet143 9 years ago

    i’m right there up with you

  4. Abby 9 years ago

    I really do hope you guys give that relationship another chance.

  5. Abby 9 years ago

    I hope you guys give it another shot.

  6. princetongirl29 9 years ago

    I am in the same exact position you are right now. We were so happy together, we used to plan our dates, our future, our lives six years from now. Then that day came. In an instance, everything changed. He became cold. No texts, no calls not even a single effort to come see me or visit like he used to do before. At first, he said it was for my own good. For my future, for my work and for my success as an accountant. I tried to fight for him so many times but then all my efforts are worthless. He continued to ignore me to the extent that even I came to their house, he would refuse to see me. Then some concern people told me he’s been with another girl. That same girl we used to fight over before. I was so angry that I said bad words towards him. What did i do wrong for me to deserve such pain? Then it hit me, that he doesn’t love me anymore. Its been three weeks already but I still cant get forget him. I knew I was no longer angry but I was still in pain. There is no day that I woke up without crying. If only he didn’t have all my life, maybe it will be easier for me to let go, to move on. But he had everything of me and now I am suffering. Will I ever be happy again? Will I find true love? I’m trying my best to be strong right now. I hope you too. I wish we will both find our true love soon.

  7. Nikki 9 years ago

    If you really truly love someone and believe it shouldn’t have ended that way then you need to let them know. I recently went through a breakup and even though they hurt me lied and choose addiction over me I still love them with all my heart. I want to be friends they said it was important to them too and that too seems untrue. what matters the most is following your heart NO MATTER WHAT. Whether or not they reciprocate or reject your feelings it’s important to communicate they might feel the same way. This post particurlarly hit a chord in me because it said I know I insulted you and we pretend the other doesn’t exist. My ex told me he never really loved me the last time we spoke that he was using me and that I was just a game basically. Even though he said he wanted another chance just days before. I didn’t truly believe it but it’s hard not to when that’s the last thing he said. I wish he’d ever called just to say sorry I did care at some point that was just my broken heart or if he did care like you do to be brave enough to tell me. My guy was a total coward couldn t even tell his parents we broke up. I had to. Don’t be like that. Afraid to try for what you really want. Worse thing that can happen is she says no which leaves you one step above where you are now cause you were brave and loved enough to make an effort. It’ll at least allow you to have no regrets for never telling her and failing your own heart.

  8. lovebug 9 years ago

    reading this helped heal old wounds. thank you, stranger. i second every beautifully said word of this letter. thank you. i hope you’re healing, too.

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