Dear Travis,
Or should I not say that? We had such an awesome friendship of five long years. We met online, and became the best of friends we could ever have been. You changed my life for the better. I fell in love with how nice, cute(through the pictures), loving, and caring you were. The very first, and very last person i will ever love. We started dating December 26th of 2012 i believe. We ended up breaking up May 2013, because you decided that you loved my best friend. You told me i would’ve had to beg for you if i wanted you, and at the age of only 14-15 i didn’t know what that meant. What could you possibly want when you lived 846 miles away from me? Long story short, our friendship got ruined once you started dating my best friend. Not only did it ruin our friendship, but mine and my best friends too. I remember having my iPod touch, and i was at my dads house and i would have to sit at the end of my driveway to get WiFi, and so i was sitting there after school one day, and it popped on my timeline that you two were in a relationship. I ran to my neighbors and bawled my eyes out, i was shaking, crying and just wanted to die. I saw all the cute things you two would post, and i acted like it didn’t hurt me. But, all i remember is lying on my bathroom floor, crying, taking pills, puking, bleeding, and thinking of successful ways of trying to kill myself.(Let me add that now in 2015, i am so glad i didn’t end my life because of you..what a selfish reason.) After you two ended, i had talked with you and we both had gotten over everything and me and you were friends. It was great. You were always there for me, and i still loved the absolute hell out of you. In the dead of the night when things were rough, and i didn’t know who to talk to i would always message you. Even though, i had lost my best friend….i still got you back as a friend. Well about a year ago is when everything took a turn. I don’t know how it happened…but my best friend and i started talking again..and we picked up right where we left off. The months went on, and me and you were still friends..along with her and i. Come January of 2015, we didn’t talk as much. Maybe a few times a month, if we were lucky. We slowly lost communication…stopped talking every month..and you never would come on facebook anymore. Come February, i messaged you because one of my friends had passed away due to suicide, and i knew you had the right thing to say to me. You always knew what to say..you were always right on top of things. But of course, you not being active as much…you didn’t see it for awhile. After arguing with you for a night because you still wouldn’t skype or call me…or give me your real cellphone number. Being the noisy little girl I am…i did some research.

Found out….you were fake.

I found the real person behind the picture, and I was automatically in tears.
All the feelings that you left me with after breaking up with me came back. What should i even feel right now? Sad? Mad? Heartbroken? Torn? Angry? Upset? Useless? Helpless? What do i feel? Even to this day…..what am i supposed to feel? I’m not necessarily angry AT you, I’m angry at the fact you let this happen for so long. But, I’m over it.

You told me that everyone at your school is talking about a girl from Wisconsin getting catfished by someone from your school..but they don’t know who that girl is that had done the catfishing. You told me to leave everyone in your town that i talked to alone. You told me the truth. You said you were a fifteen year old depressed girl. That you were unsure of your sexuality, and that you did this all out of fun. Fun? How is this fun? Ruining someones life? That is fun?! You deleted your facebook account of the fake profiles, and that was the end of everything.

The end of our friendship that we shared for five years.
Through the heartbreak, the laughs, the tears, the no skyping, no phone call, everything.
The person i would take a bullet for, the person that knew me inside and out…is gone.

I’m sorry. I’m very sorry. I should have went about the situation differently than i did. I should have been more understanding. I should have let you give me a better explanation than that. Because. Truth is, i miss you and our awesome talks. Whether you are gay, straight, bi, boy, girl, transgender, old, young. I don’t care.

When i have problems, i don’t know who to turn to anymore. You, believe it or not was the one person i could turn to.

I just want to know one answer to my one question i have for you.

If i would have went about the situation differently, and handled it differently would you still be my friend?
Do you miss me as much as i miss you?

Anyways,
Since i am sure you are wondering. I have an awesome life, i mean yeah it sucks a crap ton..but i am living it. I am living it as good as i can. I have learned a lot in the past year. Taylor and I are finally seeing each other soon in three days. We are the closest we have ever been, and I’m so thankful for her. After losing you, she was about the only person i could count on. My heart has been broken by someone else other than you 😉 So don’t feel too bad.

But,
Happy Holidays from your long lost friend that you catfished….( i make it a joke because im so stupid why didn’t i catch on earlier) Props to you for doing such a good job at it though. Good job. 🙂 (remember that joke?)

Sincerely,
The girl 846 miles away from you.