I wish I could reach out to you and tell you everything that I’ve been up to. I miss our connection and the way you made me laugh. I miss you and your family and the connection you had with mine. I miss the security of having you for 3 years and I miss us.
I hold onto the fact that this might be temporary due to your feelings for me but it’s so hard. It’s so hard to see a picture of you or to think about you and not tear up. I had a dream about you the other night. You told me we’d try again and I was so happy…I woke up asking myself if that was real and then it hit me like a ton of bricks that my mind was playing tricks on me. All of our friends and family are confused by this breakup as am I and I want to fix it. I want us to be something again but I don’t know how. I don’t know how we drifted apart without my knowledge or how you can say you still love me and never thought we’d be apart but won’t give us a try. This is all a mess but all my feelings as spilling out. I’m giving you your space because I think it will help and I’m praying to God that he puts you back in my life. I love you and I know you love me too which is a start for us. I’m just asking for a chance to show that the issues we have can be fixed and we aren’t ruined just broken.