Look, when you ended our relationship, you left based on suspicion. Your suspicion. I had never done anything to hurt you, or make you question me, so why all of a sudden was that the way to end it all? You admitted to going through my phone to find out the truth. Truth is, there was no lie to find, and you got caught and you got pissed and ended it. I have not once ever went through your phone, so why was it ok for you? Anytime I did something, I was always wrong….yet if you did it, it was ok. I was tired of the double standards.
But if we are being completely honest….you did embarrass me that night. You made me feel absolutely horrible. Because of you I was thrown out of a damned sports bar. You, as a man, got belligerent with the barmaid. Me, as the woman, who paid for you….had to apologize for you, and how you were acting. I understand how you could be upset if it was YOUR MONEY, but it was mine. And not to throw it in your face, but if I was a man, and my girlfriend who loved me more than anything, was willing to help me out, stick by me, whatever the case is….I sure as hell wouldn’t call her a piece of shit. And to top it off, if I was a man, and my girlfriend found a place for me to stay…which happens to be at her best friends house…AND my girlfriend was paying for me to stay there…I’d be a little more humble. I’d say thank you. And I probably wouldn’t be a dick and put her best friend in the middle…to where now they don’t talk, because the best friend is just as guilty in the backstabbing portion of this relationship as you were! Get this through your head, this was never my fault. This was you.
And the worst part of it is….IF we talked about it right now….IF you called, texted, smoke signaled, whatever…and we were able to JUST TALK IT OUT….I know I’d go back to you in a heartbeat, because I do love you. I told you from the beginning that I would stick it out with you no matter what. You just couldn’t hold up to your end of the promise.