I’m so over these feelings and I know I just have to confront them.  I love you, I still do, and I didn’t stop.  You were right, I was wrong, and I’m sorry.  Recently I thought maybe you missed me too.  Because you never stopped meaning the world to me.  It’s why it was hard to ghost you and let you go.  Deep down, I wanted you to be happy; even if it wasn’t with me. But I wasn’t prepared to see it, when I checked your social media.  It’s creepy and shameful I know.  And what did I expect anyways ?  When we broke up I gave you that ultimatum.  Everything was my fault.  There were so many times I could have turned back, or should have just stood up for my feelings for you.  Now it’s too late for me, and it’s great to see you have such a wonderful life.  You deserve it.  For every wrong I did, and all the hurt I caused.  There is no way I can say this, there is no reason for me to walk back into your life.  So I just want to say this for myself, my one and only love.  This heart still loves you, and as sad as I am all I can do is accept that I am out of your life.  Adios, keep smiling darling.