Hey,
We just spoke a couple of days ago, but it hurts too much knowing that I won’t see you again.  You mean so much to me, but I know I can’t hope for anything.  I had no idea things would hurt so bad though.  Because I honestly wasn’t expecting you to tell me you still feel something for me.  Even though it was what I was hoping for, it’s like breaking up all over again.  We both know you won’t give up your life for me.  There are so many days I keep hoping you just move on and laugh at me.  That would be easier to live with than you saying you still love me. All of this sucks, why couldn’t we make things work ?  Why didn’t you choose me ? Why are things like this ?   This situation always makes me cry and just scream into my pillow.  I hate days like today, I can’t focus and I need to.  It’s my fault, because I don’t want to move on, I really want to be with you again. I love you.