To A
You brought me in like I was some prized possession, only to toss me aside with the same haste. It was such a traumatic experience. You always belittled me, telling me that I wasn’t complete and didn’t have a life of my own. That I was insecure. What you did was destabilize me completely. Broke me. You lack empathy. You saw me visibly anxious and you took that as an opportunity to further reduce me to nothing. You shouted at me, insulted me, humiliated me. And I know you’ll come up with defenses for why you treated me like that. I never once used foul language with you, nor did I ever look at you as if you were worthless. You sent me out of your place. Something I would never have done to you. To you, I was nothing but a disposable commodity with an expiry date. 

I hope one day you don’t experience what it’s like to love and value someone so much, only to be treated like nothing in return. That’s exactly how you treated me. And when you were done- again, you didn’t bother to look back. What was it that made you treat me with so much disdain? I didn’t deserve that. But of course, to you, everything you do is faultless. You will never understand what it truly feels like to be broken until it happens to you. Thank you for the harsh lessons, but they came at too high of a cost.

What more could I have done to make you content ? I changed my plans for you. Moved across continents. 
Honestly, fuck you. 

I will forever hold onto God because that’s the source of my peace and joy. You’ve gone and that’s fine. I’ve been good with/out you. And that’s not going to change now. 

I really don’t wish you well. I hope your experience the depth of pain i felt. And you feel as shattered. 

However, I am ready to let it go. I don’t want to wake up wishing I said one more thing to you. Honestly, seeing you every day is such a pain