I constantly had u lingering my mind. every dream was about you whether it was good or bad. my eyes turned puffy and red whenever i cried about you. i had so many mood swings but it always led to sadness. i’ve experienced pain but not to this severity. i don’t let the deep memories rot in the burden in my heart, i try to keep them alive. i gave everything i could in the end and in the beginning. i forgive you for hurting me. i hope you forgive me too. I’m sorry for my habit’s. i’m sorry for not being there when you needed someone to hold you. i’m sorry for making you hopeless at times. i really do apologize for it all. i really did wanna keep going even if i had to pick every last piece. your the only person i would’ve changed for , i wouldn’t even done it for myself. but now you were my biggest joy and heart ache.

I wish i was able to hug you more and give you endless kisses. but it’s the end of our chapter. even if it feels like it’s been the billionth time, this is really it. i really wanted it to be you. i saw you as so much more. even if we did hurt each other, that doesn’t define you. your a wonderful human being and i’m lucky to had that experience with you. this relationship taught me self growth and self love in the end. i appreciate all you done for me and don’t ever give up. now i’m just another person that was in your life and that’s okay. i can no longer have a say in what you do even if it hurts. i wish the best for you, i love you always and forever Ric.