dear emi,
is it just me, or does it seem really quick that the time from when we met to now has passed so fast? its been almost seven months and it seems like we were watching the fireworks on fourth of july just yesterday. look, I’m not going to lie, I’ve been missing you ever since the last time i saw you.. you were so sweet to me. we got along really well. we had a lot in common and that was pretty cool.
whenever i would hear those songs that would remind me of you i would blush so much, you know that. i got butterflies all the time and that was amazing! it really was. gosh i love butterflies. i miss them. but now when i listen to them, i feel an ache in my chest. not because i have a stomachache or because i don’t like the song. its because i just miss it. idk.
When we first met what attracted me the most was your music taste. it really was. you were different, and not a bad different, you were a good different. you weren’t like anyone i had met before and i liked that about you.
okay I know we couldn’t do a long distance relationship, and so did you, but it still hurt when we finally admitted it. it was really hard for me.. and not just because you were my first boyfriend. i cared about you. when you left.. it was really heartbreaking. i didnt want you to go.. i didnt want you to leave me…i totally understand you didn’t know me before you made the plans and I’m really glad you had a lot of fun. i really am. but to be completely honest it hit me like a stack of bricks. we used to not be able to go at least one hour without talking and now we go days without talking. i thought we would talk more idk, it might just be me.
anyways, I’ve probably bored you at this point.. thanks e.
xoxo, a