D,
It’s been about a year and a half since we last spoke, and I know our lives our both at insanely different places now. There’s so many times I have just wanted to call you and see how you are doing, as well as update you on my own life, but I never seem to bring myself to do it so I thought this was the next best option.
I can honestly say that our whole time as whatever we were was such a whirlwind, yet it has played such a large role in shaping the person I am trying to become. When things ended almost as quickly as they had begun, I was angry, bitter, and overall incapable of giving you the proper goodbye you deserved. Although we were only together for about 3 months, you did so much for me during such a short time period. You were the first guy to ever tell me I was beautiful and really make me feel it. You showed me that I deserved someone who would text me good morning everyday, who would open the car door for me before I got in, and most importantly that I deserved someone who would sit through Friday night movies with my somewhat dysfunctional family (I think of these nights from time to time). You understood my somewhat mixed up mind more than anyone I had ever met, and although you didn’t stick around to see the finished product (still a work in progress), you gave me the tools to begin to put myself back together again.
Lastly thank you for allowing me to let myself be loved. I know I put up a lot of walls due to things that had occurred in my past, but I appreciate the effort you put into getting to know the person behind the façade I sometimes show the outside world. I have been with an amazing guy who shows me so much love for about a year now, and I don’t think I would have been able to accept the love he gives me if you hadn’t tried to first. I hope you have someone in your life who gives you the same type of love you give them.
I never really said much after things ended because with everything that was going on in your life, I frankly didn’t know what to say. I wish I could have been there for you as a friend, but I was incapable of doing so at the time. Although I never said it to you, I truly wish you the best, and a life full of happiness, because although neither of us are perfect I think we both deserve that.
all the best,
girly