M, and every other guy that I’ve tried to show myself to and ended up breaking my heart. You weren’t one of them until this last year.! But you’ve made your way in there. But your the only one who’s made me think of wanting to change myself. Gave me a glance if hope for my future and what I want in a man. I was so scared to see you after the two years being sober I’ve changed (my appirence is different, I’m no longer a buck 40) I’m 100 pounds heavier.! I’m so sad cause I know we are a perfect match but you are so used to the old me. Now I’m just a fat bitch I guess😕. I just want to be That women with an amazing personality that someone sees my pain and wants to be my other and fix it with me but it’s felt I’m not worth it.