I hate the fact that I did everything you asked me to, but it still wasn’t enough. I opened up to you about my struggles and my emotions and I went all in for you, but I never really stood a chance did I? I was killing myself to prove to you that I wouldn’t hurt you the way that they did. I was so focused on proving to you your own worth that I lost sight of my own. I disregarded my own needs in order to meet yours, but it was like you already decided our fate once I wanted to become serious with you. I want to hate you and I want you to hurt the way that I am. I want to pin you as the enemy; the one that made me feel like an idiot because of the fact that I gave you everything I could and more, but not once did you do the same for me. The one that thought saying I was enough was enough for me to believe that you wanted me. The one that when I asked for proof, didn’t even try to give me any. I want to hate you for making me start to fall in love with you only for you to cut me off.

But all I can say now is that I genuinely wish you find someone that doesn’t make you feel like you have to hide from them. Even if that someone isn’t me.