I gave you all my love and I screwed it up. I have not seen you since that faithful day in June over a decade ago. I walked out on you. I was afraid my children would no longer speak to me if I picked you. There hasn’t been a day that has taken place that you don’t cross my mind. It’s odd that despite all this time I am unable to move on. I once told you that you were my last relationship. I lied, I ironed out my relationship with my wife. The relationship has not thrived given that I can’t picture myself without you. I still drive with my hand stretched out to the right like I was holding your hand like I always did. I miss listening to your heartbeat every night. Your head against my chest. Your sarcasm. You Bee. I miss you. You were right. They moved on and I am still lonely. I hope you are happy and thriving in life. Wish I was there with you. I don’t think I can live here anymore; I still drive through your old apartment on my way to work. I still shed a tear each time I drive thru. So many memories… Kissing you in the rain is the one I miss the most. I love you forever B.